RRRRRRRR, matey!

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In the midst of feeling like poop and the associated drama around unrequited love, jail time (not me, of course), and trying to make sense of things that never will make sense (and as I wrote this sentence, the guy on the radio was singing "we'll tell the story of how we've overcome, and we'll understand it better by and by", I kid you not!) I missed out on international talk like a pirate day.

RRRRRRRR.........

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I think I finally just wore myself out, emotionally and physically.  Then I got sick and that made me so stinkin' weak.

RRRRRRRR.......

I heard from Cindy.

RRRRRRRRR............

I'm trying without fail to figure out where I'm supposed to be heading in life.  A lot of things have happened to me lately and more and more, I'm feeling like the bird in the cage I wrote about weeks ago.  Sometimes you get what you want and when you do it scares the hell out of you because of how fast it happened and all you want to do is run back to what you knew.

RRRRRRRR..............

And sometimes things happen so fast that you don't have time to properly recover from things that just happened to you.  The more people and circumstances seem to be pushing me, the more I keep dragging my heels.  I'm not quite sure hurrying is the right thing.  It's hell to be me.


RRRRRRRRR................

The thing I love most about Tami Jo is her inane ability to be my friend first.





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