Stories and other stuff

When I realized five years ago what an ass I was, I got some help for it.  I spoke to a therapist three times before she yelled at me and told me I was fine (that really happened), I went to her and told her that I never wanted to treat another human being the way I treated my ex. I thought I'd done a pretty good job of it until a bunch of stuff came colliding together that would change me life forever.  Nothing has changed my life as much as the little jolt of truth I got from someone who I happen to be very much in love with. Today's blog is about how I got to be this much in love with her, what I did, and about repentance in general. A while back, we talked about getting back together.  Some things had to change and as I found myself talking about those things, the finger I was pointing pointed right back at me.  I realize I'd had a ton of stuff I was hanging onto and needed to let go of.   I needed to change!   That's a tough thing to realize and ...

There is no storm here at Lark Circle.  Well, at least there isn't for me because for the time being, I'm in the eye of the proverbial hurricane.  Lots of changes happening here. I had a conversation with my houseguest yesterday before I went to work.  She doesn't want to be here anymore and I don't blame her.  Things didn't work out the way we thought they would.  It was the weirdest thing, but whatever used to be between us just isn't there.  I told her that when God wanted her to go, she would find a roommate; someone at church or a co-worker perhaps.  I know she belonged here.  I know why.  I also know that when the time came, God would order things accordingly.  Last night I found out she met a co-worker who is also needing her own place and they're looking for a place. My other upstairs roommate, who is also my former mother-in-law is also feeling the winds of change blowing.  Her future son-in-(common)law anyway, did some...

In the grand scheme of things, I'm not quite sure where today ranks, other than necessary.  I wrote a while back that my life was in a transition phase and I believe that with all certainty.  There is a lot I'm keeping close to the vest; not gonna tell my mom, my friends, the people involved....nobody.  Just me and God for now. To say I know but am not going to elaborate on things is not a lie.  I believe I do know.  The rest of it is just intensely private.  The what, the how, the things I see happening in my life right now are just between me and the Almighty.  We have a relationship and sometimes that relationship takes me to places that I don't understand.  The great thing is that one key word "relationship"... I have a relationship with God because I'm walking with Jesus!  And boy, has that relationship grown in the last couple of weeks. I have learned so much about God in the last couple of weeks.  So much that I'm not going to...