today's story.
In the grand scheme of things, I'm not quite sure where today ranks, other than necessary. I wrote a while back that my life was in a transition phase and I believe that with all certainty. There is a lot I'm keeping close to the vest; not gonna tell my mom, my friends, the people involved....nobody. Just me and God for now.
To say I know but am not going to elaborate on things is not a lie. I believe I do know. The rest of it is just intensely private. The what, the how, the things I see happening in my life right now are just between me and the Almighty. We have a relationship and sometimes that relationship takes me to places that I don't understand. The great thing is that one key word "relationship"... I have a relationship with God because I'm walking with Jesus! And boy, has that relationship grown in the last couple of weeks.
I have learned so much about God in the last couple of weeks. So much that I'm not going to share right now, but will give you this little nugget to ponder. My favorite Scripture verse is Joel 2:25. You should read it. For a long time, I thought it was just a promise and I latched on to it. I believed God would restore to me the years the locusts ate. I held onto that verse. I've prayed that verse. And all that time I just saw the promise. I didn't see the important thing until last week: It speaks to who God is. It shows His attributes of love, grace, mercy, and forgiveness. And when He does restore, it's not because of anything I did; He does it for His glory.
I saw that last night. I was listening to a song on the radio and thinking of something else when I heard words to that effect in the lyrics. Couldn't tell you what the song was, only that there was a line to that effect in it. The radio seemed to get awful loud there for a second.
My relationship with God is very dynamic. It's a real thing, not something contrived or perceived out of imagination. And as good as things are, I'm closer to and need God more than I ever have. Even in the midst of some difficult times here at the homestead, I see God working to move things along in my life. It's part of what I meant as necessary. B cannot happen until A does. And I took my hands off the steering wheel of my life a few hundred miles back. The things happening in my life, I see as God at work. I can't explain it any better than that. If I tried right now, you wouldn't believe me anyway because you don't have my relationship with God. Mine works because it's personal to me.
Mine won't work for you.
So I got to thinking about this because I shared that bit of news with my friend. She told me she doesn't want my relationship. She doesn't see the world and the things that happen in it the same way as I do. Her relationship with God isn't mine. She thinks I'm off my nut sometimes. But God is the Living God, not some inanimate thing. Jesus overcame death! He lives! That's the Good News of Christianity! So why should I expect that He won't lead me if I'm supposed to follow Him? And if He's not alive, how can He lead?
So I'm following. Closely. Quietly, but closely. But with a surety of knowing ahead of time the outcome. And there, in the midst of turmoil and chaos, is peace.
Peace that kept me from flipping out over something today that was, in the grand scheme of things...
Necessary.
To say I know but am not going to elaborate on things is not a lie. I believe I do know. The rest of it is just intensely private. The what, the how, the things I see happening in my life right now are just between me and the Almighty. We have a relationship and sometimes that relationship takes me to places that I don't understand. The great thing is that one key word "relationship"... I have a relationship with God because I'm walking with Jesus! And boy, has that relationship grown in the last couple of weeks.
I have learned so much about God in the last couple of weeks. So much that I'm not going to share right now, but will give you this little nugget to ponder. My favorite Scripture verse is Joel 2:25. You should read it. For a long time, I thought it was just a promise and I latched on to it. I believed God would restore to me the years the locusts ate. I held onto that verse. I've prayed that verse. And all that time I just saw the promise. I didn't see the important thing until last week: It speaks to who God is. It shows His attributes of love, grace, mercy, and forgiveness. And when He does restore, it's not because of anything I did; He does it for His glory.
I saw that last night. I was listening to a song on the radio and thinking of something else when I heard words to that effect in the lyrics. Couldn't tell you what the song was, only that there was a line to that effect in it. The radio seemed to get awful loud there for a second.
My relationship with God is very dynamic. It's a real thing, not something contrived or perceived out of imagination. And as good as things are, I'm closer to and need God more than I ever have. Even in the midst of some difficult times here at the homestead, I see God working to move things along in my life. It's part of what I meant as necessary. B cannot happen until A does. And I took my hands off the steering wheel of my life a few hundred miles back. The things happening in my life, I see as God at work. I can't explain it any better than that. If I tried right now, you wouldn't believe me anyway because you don't have my relationship with God. Mine works because it's personal to me.
Mine won't work for you.
So I got to thinking about this because I shared that bit of news with my friend. She told me she doesn't want my relationship. She doesn't see the world and the things that happen in it the same way as I do. Her relationship with God isn't mine. She thinks I'm off my nut sometimes. But God is the Living God, not some inanimate thing. Jesus overcame death! He lives! That's the Good News of Christianity! So why should I expect that He won't lead me if I'm supposed to follow Him? And if He's not alive, how can He lead?
So I'm following. Closely. Quietly, but closely. But with a surety of knowing ahead of time the outcome. And there, in the midst of turmoil and chaos, is peace.
Peace that kept me from flipping out over something today that was, in the grand scheme of things...
Necessary.
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