Heed
Sometimes, you see something and it just grabs you by the throat.
Since January, that's happened to me twice. Once was a Facebook post that reminded me that going back to the past would take me back to where I am already at, only it would take me a lot longer than it did the last time to get here.
Hey, I'm already here and I know what here cost me. I paid a lot to get here, both emotionally and financially. So, I'm agreeing with God that here is where I belong. I think though it was still wise to ask God about things because of what was going on. And clearly, to me anyway, I'm headed in the right direction.
I have a firm belief that God's word tells me He guides. So I'm following as best as I can. Warning heeded.
The next one was something I saw last week was something from Tony Evans. It was another warning and it turns out it was one for me to again heed:
"Things may get worse before they get better."
And they have.
Last Saturday, I got something from my insurance company I didn't understand. It was a reversal of a claim they paid. I didn't understand it was a reversal. They won't pay for me getting hurt at work because I got hurt at work. Even though workman's comp hasn't approved me for getting hurt at work in that particular part of my body (which hurts really bad today.). Today, in the mail, I got the bill.
I was walking out the door to the car on Sunday and something smelled like electrical burning. The house wasn't on fire, though, so I didn't pay it much mind. My roomie cooks and he makes some funky dishes that have pungent odors. I just chalked it up to that.
Last night though, I kept hearing this humming like an electric motor was trying to start and couldn't. I investigated this morning and that's when I found out the furnace has conked out. I need to replace it. I know I do. I was just hoping to get through the rest of the winter and replace it in the summer, when they're cheap and I will be bankruptcy free.
I mentioned the taxes owe on the bakery in a previous post. I will be mailing that check off tomorrow. It will cost me all of my tax returns. Thank God I had just enough to cover it and another bill that popped up unexpectedly.
My dog is notorious for wandering off sometimes. I let her out this morning and had to go searching for her. I found her across the street in my neighbor's yard, taking a poop, while my neighbor stood there and watched. Back in the house to get shoes and a plastic bag to clean up the doggie bomb. When I returned, I found that the doggie had left a bomb in the house, too.
Shortly after cleaning up that mess, a furry creature barfed in the dining room, so I got to clean that up, too.
Not all has been bad. I was able to find a cheap can of coffee at the store. I'm thankful for that.
The house didn't burn down. There are two other furnaces and if needed, I will buy a space heater. My neighbor was cool about the dog. I have a few pills left to take the edge off the pain in my back and hopefully they do. Tonight, when I go to work, I will find out of the union gets involved in workmans' comp claims. If they do, maybe I can get some action to have my claim amended. I'm getting nowhere on my own.
I believe God is Good. All the time. And like Tony Evans said, maybe bad is just a pre-cursor to the amazing good God is gonna do in my life and He's just getting me ready for it. I have been struggling for so long, I'm not sure how to live on top of the mountain. And with the furnace conking out, the top of the mountain is going to have to wait a bit. That will require saving and sacrifice to replace. I looked and it's about $4000 to replace and that's without an air conditioner which also needs to be replaced. That repair will have to wait.
The warning was clear. Things got worse. I can look at it as bad, or just trust in God's provision and providence. He knows why. I don't need to. I just trust Him that it's part of His plan for my life. There was a time when I would have freaked out. Not today. There's no going back. There's nothing to go back to, honestly. And going forward, there will be obstacles to overcome.
To God be the glory. Because I know I'm not strong enough on my own to not throw in the towel. Today, I'm operating in strength that is not my own. I can't explain it any better than that.
Since January, that's happened to me twice. Once was a Facebook post that reminded me that going back to the past would take me back to where I am already at, only it would take me a lot longer than it did the last time to get here.
Hey, I'm already here and I know what here cost me. I paid a lot to get here, both emotionally and financially. So, I'm agreeing with God that here is where I belong. I think though it was still wise to ask God about things because of what was going on. And clearly, to me anyway, I'm headed in the right direction.
I have a firm belief that God's word tells me He guides. So I'm following as best as I can. Warning heeded.
The next one was something I saw last week was something from Tony Evans. It was another warning and it turns out it was one for me to again heed:
"Things may get worse before they get better."
And they have.
Last Saturday, I got something from my insurance company I didn't understand. It was a reversal of a claim they paid. I didn't understand it was a reversal. They won't pay for me getting hurt at work because I got hurt at work. Even though workman's comp hasn't approved me for getting hurt at work in that particular part of my body (which hurts really bad today.). Today, in the mail, I got the bill.
I was walking out the door to the car on Sunday and something smelled like electrical burning. The house wasn't on fire, though, so I didn't pay it much mind. My roomie cooks and he makes some funky dishes that have pungent odors. I just chalked it up to that.
Last night though, I kept hearing this humming like an electric motor was trying to start and couldn't. I investigated this morning and that's when I found out the furnace has conked out. I need to replace it. I know I do. I was just hoping to get through the rest of the winter and replace it in the summer, when they're cheap and I will be bankruptcy free.
I mentioned the taxes owe on the bakery in a previous post. I will be mailing that check off tomorrow. It will cost me all of my tax returns. Thank God I had just enough to cover it and another bill that popped up unexpectedly.
My dog is notorious for wandering off sometimes. I let her out this morning and had to go searching for her. I found her across the street in my neighbor's yard, taking a poop, while my neighbor stood there and watched. Back in the house to get shoes and a plastic bag to clean up the doggie bomb. When I returned, I found that the doggie had left a bomb in the house, too.
Shortly after cleaning up that mess, a furry creature barfed in the dining room, so I got to clean that up, too.
Not all has been bad. I was able to find a cheap can of coffee at the store. I'm thankful for that.
The house didn't burn down. There are two other furnaces and if needed, I will buy a space heater. My neighbor was cool about the dog. I have a few pills left to take the edge off the pain in my back and hopefully they do. Tonight, when I go to work, I will find out of the union gets involved in workmans' comp claims. If they do, maybe I can get some action to have my claim amended. I'm getting nowhere on my own.
I believe God is Good. All the time. And like Tony Evans said, maybe bad is just a pre-cursor to the amazing good God is gonna do in my life and He's just getting me ready for it. I have been struggling for so long, I'm not sure how to live on top of the mountain. And with the furnace conking out, the top of the mountain is going to have to wait a bit. That will require saving and sacrifice to replace. I looked and it's about $4000 to replace and that's without an air conditioner which also needs to be replaced. That repair will have to wait.
The warning was clear. Things got worse. I can look at it as bad, or just trust in God's provision and providence. He knows why. I don't need to. I just trust Him that it's part of His plan for my life. There was a time when I would have freaked out. Not today. There's no going back. There's nothing to go back to, honestly. And going forward, there will be obstacles to overcome.
To God be the glory. Because I know I'm not strong enough on my own to not throw in the towel. Today, I'm operating in strength that is not my own. I can't explain it any better than that.
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