I don't know how He does it
God is good to me.
So much has gone on lately, and it kinda feels like maybe things are turning a bit of a corner. I hope so anyway.
Today was a great day. Yesterday wasn't bad either, except for the part where I hit my head on the side of the airplane's elevator, which tried to take the top off my head and literally dropped m to my knees. It hurt. I hate that little blind spot I have right there.
Anyway, it feels like God and I have been growing deeper in our relationship lately. I kinda got warned in April that things would get worse before they got better, but in that, I think it was God trying to help me trust Him. Sometimes I have trust issues. I think too, though, that God has been showing me that. I say that because when I was speaking with him, I reminded him of this:
"You know how I am."
The reply: "That's the point."
God's little way of reminding me that He's trying to change the part about me that tends to worry, or that needs to know the "scoop".
I don't know how God does the things He does, but I know sometimes that other people help us understand. Im my case, there's this dear sister on the Facebook and sometimes, OK, almost all the time, what she posts speaks to where I'm at. That and when it was time to start reading another book of the Bible, the Spirit led me to 2 Corinthians, which has explained a lot.
I'm being purposeful about praising God; purposeful to thank Him; purposeful to trust Him; and purposeful about not taking things back that I've given to him.
That's hard, but if I'm gonna change, then that change can't be a continual flip-flop back to being the way God is trying to change me from. Easy to say. Harder to do.
But God, in His ways, sometimes has to take me to a place where there isn't another choice. And I think that's why things got a little worse since April, when things didn't work out as I thought they were going to. And I'm really kinda glad in a way, because I feel more at peace knowing I'm closer to God these days.
And on Friday, some things maybe started changing. I know I was able to fix the Toyota I've been working on. I had all the tools, got some help from above, and things fell into place. I was having a hard time trying to figure out how to get the U-joint out of one of the pieces so I asked God to show me how. I got an idea I wasn't capable of generating, and things went smoothly.
We're blessed with strawberries. I planted them years ago and they've never really done much. This year, they've been working their little guts out. They don't keep, though, so I have to eat them right when I pick them or start freezing them. I took the ones I had and made a cheesecake around them.
The other thing I'm noticing the last couple of days is that my mind is a little more clear. It's tough to always be in a funk because the pressure is so great. With that peace, my mind is a little bit more able to process stuff. I don't feel so exhausted either.
Still a long way to go here, but I'm so grateful for what's going on in my life. I wouldn't want to miss any of it!
So much has gone on lately, and it kinda feels like maybe things are turning a bit of a corner. I hope so anyway.
Today was a great day. Yesterday wasn't bad either, except for the part where I hit my head on the side of the airplane's elevator, which tried to take the top off my head and literally dropped m to my knees. It hurt. I hate that little blind spot I have right there.
Anyway, it feels like God and I have been growing deeper in our relationship lately. I kinda got warned in April that things would get worse before they got better, but in that, I think it was God trying to help me trust Him. Sometimes I have trust issues. I think too, though, that God has been showing me that. I say that because when I was speaking with him, I reminded him of this:
"You know how I am."
The reply: "That's the point."
God's little way of reminding me that He's trying to change the part about me that tends to worry, or that needs to know the "scoop".
I don't know how God does the things He does, but I know sometimes that other people help us understand. Im my case, there's this dear sister on the Facebook and sometimes, OK, almost all the time, what she posts speaks to where I'm at. That and when it was time to start reading another book of the Bible, the Spirit led me to 2 Corinthians, which has explained a lot.
I'm being purposeful about praising God; purposeful to thank Him; purposeful to trust Him; and purposeful about not taking things back that I've given to him.
That's hard, but if I'm gonna change, then that change can't be a continual flip-flop back to being the way God is trying to change me from. Easy to say. Harder to do.
But God, in His ways, sometimes has to take me to a place where there isn't another choice. And I think that's why things got a little worse since April, when things didn't work out as I thought they were going to. And I'm really kinda glad in a way, because I feel more at peace knowing I'm closer to God these days.
And on Friday, some things maybe started changing. I know I was able to fix the Toyota I've been working on. I had all the tools, got some help from above, and things fell into place. I was having a hard time trying to figure out how to get the U-joint out of one of the pieces so I asked God to show me how. I got an idea I wasn't capable of generating, and things went smoothly.
We're blessed with strawberries. I planted them years ago and they've never really done much. This year, they've been working their little guts out. They don't keep, though, so I have to eat them right when I pick them or start freezing them. I took the ones I had and made a cheesecake around them.
The other thing I'm noticing the last couple of days is that my mind is a little more clear. It's tough to always be in a funk because the pressure is so great. With that peace, my mind is a little bit more able to process stuff. I don't feel so exhausted either.
Still a long way to go here, but I'm so grateful for what's going on in my life. I wouldn't want to miss any of it!
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