Filling up the cup.

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 I stayed home today.  No beach.  No shopping.  No errands to run.  Nothing.  Just kind of felt the Spirit leading me to stay put and relax today.  I think if I had to find a word other than hurt to describe me, I honestly think spent would take first place.

Hurt is kinda dissipating.  It seems this week is flying by faster than normal and I've pretty well come to terms with things.  Mostly because a person in my life would be nice, but it's not where my happiness comes from.  It comes from Jesus and I'm really leaning into Him right now.

I love that I can do that.  I can't believe I get to do that.  I know me.  I know who I used to be and that the King of Kings would even want to have anything to do with me, let alone love and care for me enough to not let me have a pity party, is just mind-boggling.

If you've seen my Facebook page, you know I've been rapidly making improvements to the house.  That's self-care.  I had hoped she would have helped make it our place but that wasn't in her plans.  That's why the pictures finally went up, the rug went down, and the decorations were purchased.  It's cathartic for me; making it home for me was a healing thing.  It's part of self-care.

I finally got around to installing the doggy door.  It used to have one.  It has one again, with the help of a pair of tin snips.  Power tools aren't always the answer.  Tin snips did a better job in 1/3 the time of my saws-all.  I baited Bucky into and out of it with some turkey.  The cats are next.  

As I said, though it's self-care.  Self care looks like a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast.  It looks like replacing my broken phone which took a couple of hours and telling the people on the other end of the chat session how to fix my problem.  They did what I asked and it worked out great.

It's petting the cat.  It's taking a shower and putting on clean clothes every day.  It's knowing when to stop and rest.  It's listening to the promptings of the Holy Spirit to remind me I don't need to feed my face when it's not mealtime.  Those are the things I'm working on right now.  

God is so good to me.  I mean that.  He's really walking me through this very carefully and reminding me that something is in front of me, so not to worry about what's behind.  I'm amazed, again, how fast the days are going.  The distance is getting put behind me quickly.  I'm good with that.


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