Less than perfect, but working on it....

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I like to think I don't complain, then yesterday happened.  I had a chore at work I'd been trying, with varying stages of failure, to pawn off on someone else.  I was hoping somebody would like to take it on as a way to serve.  I was hoping someone would step forward and take that responsibility on for themselves.  I've been trying as long as I've been waiting for a warm day and the weather to change to do it.  And yesterday was the day.

The thing is this, though:  The responsibility for the task being done was mine.  I was told by my predecessor that it would fall to me to ensure it was done.  And up to a couple of weeks ago, the task really didn't need to be done, but finally, the algae in the fish pond got to be too much.  I'd been talking about (which in hindsight, was me probably complaining) taking care of it.  And when I mentioned it on Wednesday night, the most unlikely volunteer I could have ever imagined showed up to help me. 

That meant a lot to me.  That someone else would take some time out of their day to help me clean out the fish pond.  He had some good suggestions and his help was appreciated.  I'm grateful for that help and in the end, the task wasn't really as bad as I had made it out to be.  I just didn't want to do it because I didn't want to kill the fish.

I think the fish will survive and I learned a bit about how I approach the things I don't really want to do.  And I didn't think I was complaining until some conviction came over me last night.  I really really didn't want to do this.  I've been dreading it.  But as I got reminded of, that's just part of life.  It's part of picking up our cross and for this task, maybe I didn't have the servant's heart I quite needed yesterday until my friend showed up and helped me out.  He showed me and reminded me what a real servant's heart looked like.

And I needed that.  

As I said, I'm not perfect.  But I'm learning....

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