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I had a good time ice fishing with my friends.  My middle son went down with us and he got to spend some time with his uncle KP.  That kid of mine, he's the real deal.  And so is KP.  We had a great time!

I had this big story I was going to share, but it didn't feel right to share it just yet.  There's a lot of stuff going on in my life right now that I just can't make sense of.  About the only way to explain it is that everything seems to be pointing me to a path that's not what I'm on, but at the same time, I don't see a way down that path.

My mom and I were talking the other night and she's been the biggest skeptic of what's been going on over the last few years because she didn't want for me what appeared to be on the horizon.  At this point though, I think she's even come to terms with the fact that when you start adding up the little providences, they're unexplainable, except that they're there, they're very real, and they can't be ignored.

And she said something very profound to me:  Confusion just seems to be a part of your life right now.

I may have mentioned this the other day, but God's not telling me.  He let me know I wouldn't believe it, and He was right.  But I can't ignore it, either.  Especially because my Scripture reading before she said that was about the Tower of Babel and how God confused the languages of man.

I came to realize that sometimes God uses confusion for His purposes.  Maybe for me it's a way to lean in to Him.  I don't know.  I know I don't understand any of what's happening in my life these days.  I'm trying to.  But I don't.

I don't think I'm supposed to.

At some point though, you have to just trust God.  And that's what I'm working on tonight.  Prayers appreciated.




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