A little about my day yesterday
There are trying days in life. We all have them.
This is my yesterday:
I offered to do something nice for someone. I don't expect anything in return but I am having a bit of a schedule conflict so I asked someone to do something for me yesterday and the person declined. It would have really helped me out but I know it's not the person's responsibility, it's mine. Now whether or not the weather is gonna cooperate, the thing will get done today.
I had a tough choice to make yesterday. I committed to doing something that's gonna require me to sacrifice my Saturday mornings for the next three months. That might not sound like a big deal but it means I get to see less of my GF than I do already. It's like anything else in life, you sacrifice a little now for a benefit later. The biggest thing I sacrificed is a commitment to be where I'm at for at least another six months. I don't see me packing up and moving n the middle of winter.
I guess the ocean will still be there if I get there someday.
I try to be an easy person to get along with. Someone made the mistake of confusing easy going with either stupid or weak. One of my co-workers is playing boss this week and thought it would be a good idea to try and make me feel stupid in front of the whole crew. I haven't been that mad in years but I know I've been guilty of doing the same thing. I remember I reap what I sow and it's no fun to be on the receiving end of that. I think he kind of knew about 2/3 of the way into the conversation I wasn't the right guy to try that crap with though. If you push me, I push back. I walked away from the thing before I escalated it; a new twist to an old story. I never back down. OK, I guess I backed down so that doesn't apply anymore but I was so mad I dropped the F-bomb.
Now I know that many of you have heard me use that word in an every other word conversation but nowadays it's not part of my vocabulary. I told another of my co-workers that I hadn't been that mad in years and that I do have a backbone. Just because I'm cooperative doesn't mean I'm weak. Why do people make that distinction. One told me it was the Master Sergeant coming out in me.
He has no idea.
If my inner Master Sergeant had come out, I would have made the guy either take a swing at me or made him cry. He and I will have words about this incident after I've calmed down. I'm not there yet.
But I didn't get all butt-hurt mad either. I stayed at work and finished my shift like a good little doo-bee.
On my way to work yesterday, I asked God to give me that servant's heart I need. I should be a lot more grateful for the blessings in my life than I sometimes am. I have a good job when so many don't. I have people that love and care about me. Relationships with my kids are starting to thaw out. They're not where they need to be but that's not going to happen overnight. But I'm where I'm at and sometimes that feels like stuck. But what I'm not is ungrateful. I am well blessed and that glory and praise goes to God!
I am thankful and grateful. I'm also confused and now I'm grounded here in Ogden for at least a while.
I still don't get the whole Oregon/Homedale thing. I was already at home. I didn't need to drive 1200 miles to figure that one out.
But then, if my life wasn't kind of crazy what fun would it be to read the blog, right?
Someplace in there, the check engine light came on in the car. It's been running like crap lately and it's just another thingie to deal with. I'll add it to the list. That list is getting long.
The good stuff is the long talk with God about a lot of this stuff and recognizing the need to be grateful and thankful for what I have. I still believe God is in the heart changing business and mine needs tweaking. Another gift from God is the wisdom to know that; again something praiseworthy!
After all, it ain't about me. It's about Him and I'm kind of glad I've learned to keep a lid on my temper because yesterday would've been a great day for the pity party!
Enjoy the rain. If I can't be on the coast, at least it's a coastal day here along the western slope of the Rocky Mountains.
This is my yesterday:
I offered to do something nice for someone. I don't expect anything in return but I am having a bit of a schedule conflict so I asked someone to do something for me yesterday and the person declined. It would have really helped me out but I know it's not the person's responsibility, it's mine. Now whether or not the weather is gonna cooperate, the thing will get done today.
I had a tough choice to make yesterday. I committed to doing something that's gonna require me to sacrifice my Saturday mornings for the next three months. That might not sound like a big deal but it means I get to see less of my GF than I do already. It's like anything else in life, you sacrifice a little now for a benefit later. The biggest thing I sacrificed is a commitment to be where I'm at for at least another six months. I don't see me packing up and moving n the middle of winter.
I guess the ocean will still be there if I get there someday.
I try to be an easy person to get along with. Someone made the mistake of confusing easy going with either stupid or weak. One of my co-workers is playing boss this week and thought it would be a good idea to try and make me feel stupid in front of the whole crew. I haven't been that mad in years but I know I've been guilty of doing the same thing. I remember I reap what I sow and it's no fun to be on the receiving end of that. I think he kind of knew about 2/3 of the way into the conversation I wasn't the right guy to try that crap with though. If you push me, I push back. I walked away from the thing before I escalated it; a new twist to an old story. I never back down. OK, I guess I backed down so that doesn't apply anymore but I was so mad I dropped the F-bomb.
Now I know that many of you have heard me use that word in an every other word conversation but nowadays it's not part of my vocabulary. I told another of my co-workers that I hadn't been that mad in years and that I do have a backbone. Just because I'm cooperative doesn't mean I'm weak. Why do people make that distinction. One told me it was the Master Sergeant coming out in me.
He has no idea.
If my inner Master Sergeant had come out, I would have made the guy either take a swing at me or made him cry. He and I will have words about this incident after I've calmed down. I'm not there yet.
But I didn't get all butt-hurt mad either. I stayed at work and finished my shift like a good little doo-bee.
On my way to work yesterday, I asked God to give me that servant's heart I need. I should be a lot more grateful for the blessings in my life than I sometimes am. I have a good job when so many don't. I have people that love and care about me. Relationships with my kids are starting to thaw out. They're not where they need to be but that's not going to happen overnight. But I'm where I'm at and sometimes that feels like stuck. But what I'm not is ungrateful. I am well blessed and that glory and praise goes to God!
I am thankful and grateful. I'm also confused and now I'm grounded here in Ogden for at least a while.
I still don't get the whole Oregon/Homedale thing. I was already at home. I didn't need to drive 1200 miles to figure that one out.
But then, if my life wasn't kind of crazy what fun would it be to read the blog, right?
Someplace in there, the check engine light came on in the car. It's been running like crap lately and it's just another thingie to deal with. I'll add it to the list. That list is getting long.
The good stuff is the long talk with God about a lot of this stuff and recognizing the need to be grateful and thankful for what I have. I still believe God is in the heart changing business and mine needs tweaking. Another gift from God is the wisdom to know that; again something praiseworthy!
After all, it ain't about me. It's about Him and I'm kind of glad I've learned to keep a lid on my temper because yesterday would've been a great day for the pity party!
Enjoy the rain. If I can't be on the coast, at least it's a coastal day here along the western slope of the Rocky Mountains.
and you don't have to shovel the rain. :-)
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