I had to laugh. When I opened the page to commence writing this post, I saw that my favorite pastor had written a blog entitled "When life sucks." It's pretty bad when your life makes other people cry as was the case at church yesterday. That was only the tip of the iceberg.
I want to start out by saying that God is good all the time. Even when life sucks, He's still on the throne. I felt that last night as I knelt by my bed for my evening prayers. I felt like I was literally at the foot of the throne of Jesus, praying. I had a lot to pray about.
I don't have a GF anymore. The rest of it is private. I still do have a roommate because extending grace sometimes comes at a cost to oneself. I'm not putting anybody out on the street unless it's absolutely necessary and in this case it wasn't. I think this would have been harder had we been intimate. Maybe there is something to be said for following God's word on the subject.
The talk came on Sunday. And then the washing machine flooded in the basement so I spent some time with my other very understanding roommate cleaning up the flood. Fortunately the worst part of it was contained to the concrete. Tile is easily mopped up and renting a carpet cleaner dried up the small amount of carpet that was wet. I need to snake the pipe monthly to keep this from ever happening again. I may have to change out some baseboards in the basement too, but nothing as severe as what happened the first time.
It's an old house.
The last tragedy was that I broke my computer modem. I'm not sure how I did it but it's replaced. It's money I didn't want to spend, but that's every nickel I spend these days.
I gotta get back on track and I will quickly. Mandatory overtime starts tonight.
Go me.
It's a good thing though, because I won't see my roomie much. Right now that's a good thing because it's awkward. It's gonna be for a while.
I'm thinking maybe I'm gonna just stay alone for a bit this time; get caught up, find a dream, make a plan, and press forward. I like helping people and I have the gift of hospitality, so maybe those two things can go hand-in-hand somehow. I have a gift for writing, too.
I also have this whole situation I'm in where I'm just kind of stuck, so it's gonna take a lot of guidance from the Lord to move forward from here. I'm hanging on to a lot of promises these days and one is that He will lead if we will follow. I'm open to following and right now I'm trying to figure out if I'm not following where I should because I'm afraid to lose the retirement. That's not gonna happen at this point. I'll get something because even if I were to hang up the wrenches today, I'd give them two weeks notice and that will take me past the 25 year mark.
Again, right now I'm just asking questions and hoping answers come. Sometimes that's all you can do.
One I'm not asking though is simply "Why?" At this point, why doesn't even matter to me.
Things are what they are.
I'm sad but still have joy in my heart. That's trusting God and I'm really wanting to get back to obeying HIm, too. The whole checkbook thing is top priority for me. Overtime will help.
Well, kids, that's all from Lark Circle. Yesterday sucked. Today has been a bit better. Time heals.
Have a blessed week,
I want to start out by saying that God is good all the time. Even when life sucks, He's still on the throne. I felt that last night as I knelt by my bed for my evening prayers. I felt like I was literally at the foot of the throne of Jesus, praying. I had a lot to pray about.
I don't have a GF anymore. The rest of it is private. I still do have a roommate because extending grace sometimes comes at a cost to oneself. I'm not putting anybody out on the street unless it's absolutely necessary and in this case it wasn't. I think this would have been harder had we been intimate. Maybe there is something to be said for following God's word on the subject.
The talk came on Sunday. And then the washing machine flooded in the basement so I spent some time with my other very understanding roommate cleaning up the flood. Fortunately the worst part of it was contained to the concrete. Tile is easily mopped up and renting a carpet cleaner dried up the small amount of carpet that was wet. I need to snake the pipe monthly to keep this from ever happening again. I may have to change out some baseboards in the basement too, but nothing as severe as what happened the first time.
It's an old house.
The last tragedy was that I broke my computer modem. I'm not sure how I did it but it's replaced. It's money I didn't want to spend, but that's every nickel I spend these days.
I gotta get back on track and I will quickly. Mandatory overtime starts tonight.
Go me.
It's a good thing though, because I won't see my roomie much. Right now that's a good thing because it's awkward. It's gonna be for a while.
I'm thinking maybe I'm gonna just stay alone for a bit this time; get caught up, find a dream, make a plan, and press forward. I like helping people and I have the gift of hospitality, so maybe those two things can go hand-in-hand somehow. I have a gift for writing, too.
I also have this whole situation I'm in where I'm just kind of stuck, so it's gonna take a lot of guidance from the Lord to move forward from here. I'm hanging on to a lot of promises these days and one is that He will lead if we will follow. I'm open to following and right now I'm trying to figure out if I'm not following where I should because I'm afraid to lose the retirement. That's not gonna happen at this point. I'll get something because even if I were to hang up the wrenches today, I'd give them two weeks notice and that will take me past the 25 year mark.
Again, right now I'm just asking questions and hoping answers come. Sometimes that's all you can do.
One I'm not asking though is simply "Why?" At this point, why doesn't even matter to me.
Things are what they are.
I'm sad but still have joy in my heart. That's trusting God and I'm really wanting to get back to obeying HIm, too. The whole checkbook thing is top priority for me. Overtime will help.
Well, kids, that's all from Lark Circle. Yesterday sucked. Today has been a bit better. Time heals.
Have a blessed week,
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