Six months out...
I hadn't noticed but I've been singe for six months. I'm thinking that's about five more months than popular opinion thought I would be. I'm really in no hurry and I'm not so bad alone. It'd be nice to have someone to share expenses with, to be sure, but past that, I think I'm still needing to learn some things.
I needed a little guidance today and turned to the Psalms, specifically Psalms 145-147. I don't know that I found answers there, but I did find some uplifting scripture. I fear God and that's a good thing. In fact before I turned to said Scriptures, I talked with the Almighty about that fear. I'm reminded that to fear God is a good thing.
One of the comments the ex made about me was that she was certain there was someone waiting in the wings. I talked to that specific someone today and it just reminded me that God has reasons for things. We find ourselves at polar opposites of how our relationship used to be; I'm hoping that the things I did were a good example for her to follow and I can honestly tell you I know first hand some of the things I put her through when I was trying to do the right thing. On the one hand, you know it's right, but there's still a spot where it hurts. It's not quite covetous; more of just a lack of understanding of how someone could treat someone you think is so wonderful so bad and have that person still want to make things work.
Of course I know the answer and it's called "loving God more". When you have that kind of love for God, where you put Him first, it's always a good thing. But it's not always as easy as it sounds, either. You just never know though how God will use circumstances.
I know too that several of you aren't surprised that I'm divorced. I know that I always thought that following God would most likely wind up in something happening that didn't. I kind of learned that there are two types of God's will: the things He will make happen by His sovereign will and those things that He wants to happen that involve choices that each of us make. That's why He gave us His word. He wants us to be more like Jesus and if we follow His word, it shapes and changes us. I know it changed me in ways I could never have imagined.
Part of my result was that two people had to agree on what God's will for us was and one of us didn't. It's as simple as that. I still believe I was led where I went, but that leading never guaranteed a solid result.
I always said I knew that. I don't think I really believed it, though.
But at least I understand it more.
I don't know what's next for me. I know that if I had the opportunity, I'd be heading to the coast to look at this little coffee shop for sale. I asked God about it. We'll see what He's got to say. I just know I have to get some kind of plan because this bobbing like a cork on the ocean of life isn't causing me anything but grief. I'm all kinds of tired of stupid stuff happening to me.
Well, that's it for a Saturday.
Hope you're well, dear reader. Have a blessed day.
I needed a little guidance today and turned to the Psalms, specifically Psalms 145-147. I don't know that I found answers there, but I did find some uplifting scripture. I fear God and that's a good thing. In fact before I turned to said Scriptures, I talked with the Almighty about that fear. I'm reminded that to fear God is a good thing.
One of the comments the ex made about me was that she was certain there was someone waiting in the wings. I talked to that specific someone today and it just reminded me that God has reasons for things. We find ourselves at polar opposites of how our relationship used to be; I'm hoping that the things I did were a good example for her to follow and I can honestly tell you I know first hand some of the things I put her through when I was trying to do the right thing. On the one hand, you know it's right, but there's still a spot where it hurts. It's not quite covetous; more of just a lack of understanding of how someone could treat someone you think is so wonderful so bad and have that person still want to make things work.
Of course I know the answer and it's called "loving God more". When you have that kind of love for God, where you put Him first, it's always a good thing. But it's not always as easy as it sounds, either. You just never know though how God will use circumstances.
I know too that several of you aren't surprised that I'm divorced. I know that I always thought that following God would most likely wind up in something happening that didn't. I kind of learned that there are two types of God's will: the things He will make happen by His sovereign will and those things that He wants to happen that involve choices that each of us make. That's why He gave us His word. He wants us to be more like Jesus and if we follow His word, it shapes and changes us. I know it changed me in ways I could never have imagined.
Part of my result was that two people had to agree on what God's will for us was and one of us didn't. It's as simple as that. I still believe I was led where I went, but that leading never guaranteed a solid result.
I always said I knew that. I don't think I really believed it, though.
But at least I understand it more.
I don't know what's next for me. I know that if I had the opportunity, I'd be heading to the coast to look at this little coffee shop for sale. I asked God about it. We'll see what He's got to say. I just know I have to get some kind of plan because this bobbing like a cork on the ocean of life isn't causing me anything but grief. I'm all kinds of tired of stupid stuff happening to me.
Well, that's it for a Saturday.
Hope you're well, dear reader. Have a blessed day.
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