What's New?
So, I'm writing again. I have much to write about.
I have really been thinking about the things God is telling me. In this new season, He's blessed the start of it by giving me a book to really help put things in perspective.
I've come to understand that when life isn't making perfect sense to us, it's making perfect sense to God.
I asked myself about this new season, and in thinking about it I thought about this. My favorite verse of Scripture is Joel 2:25, which you should read. In part it says, "I will restore to you the years the locusts ate." In the old season, bed bugs came and somehow miraculously only infested my things. There was seriously one lone bed bug in Wendi's things. She didn't have to toss anything. I lost everything.
Most of what I lost was used up. My washer was used up. My dryer is close. It still works, so it remains an item God left me which I used in my battle with the bed bugs. They don't like heat.
I got to keep my TV. I also got to keep my stereo I found at the thrift store. But everything else in the house was gone, as I mentioned before.
But this is a new season, and it's starting off with some new things, but not all at once. I was able to get my laundry room re-done. The floor looks nice and the wainscoting really pops. It turned out well. New carpet for the small bedrooms arrives on the 14th of August. A new sofa and love seat will be here sometime next week or the week after. It depends on how much room on the truck to the store there is.
I found a table I like and I also found one I want. The one I like has four chairs and is $400. The one I want has eight chars and is $900. I might give in to a day of overtime and get the one with eight chairs. I like entertaining and I'm hoping that this new season will afford me that opportunity.
Those are things God is allowing me to have because I need them. My stuff was all used up and couldn't come into this new season. Sometimes people can't come, either. I'm getting better at understanding that.
There are new appliances too. The new washer and dryer are lovely. I'm so thankful for them. The new refrigerator and dishwasher will be here on the 27th. Each and every item on this list of new was on sale. For a really good price.
I have a bed as I mentioned. It's enough for now. It's not the air mattress and it's off the floor. I'm thankful for that, too.
But that's just material stuff. It sounds like a lot, but I needed a lot. I had a way to pay for them, that won't hurt me a lot. I'm thankful for that, too.
In this new season, God told me something unexpected. OK, He's told me a lot of unexpected stuff, but this one thing He made me think really hard about for a bit:
I have a ministry. It's at the rescue mission and it's very small. But it's ministering to people by just being me, a guy who loves Jesus and wants other people to know that Jesus loves them, too.
That news changed my life. But I never thought of it as an actual ministry. Ministry is what my friend Karl does. I just join him, and occasionally fill in for him.
Of all the things I do, of all the things new, that revelation is so important to me. God trusts me enough with His word that He lets me have a ministry!
I'm excited by that. But humbled. It's a privilege to tell people about their Creator. A mighty one, and it's something I don't take lightly.
My life is so not about me anymore.
The other thing that's new is answers. God is slowly walking me through an after-action report of the last five years of my life. Slowly, step by step, I'm seeing more good that came out of not getting fair maiden and losing everything in front of Wendi's eyes, being humiliated, and being made to look like a fool. There were kingdom reasons, reasons I couldn't see in the trial, that are being revealed to me.
God is good. He is just. He's sometimes hard. But that's just because what Karl told me a long time ago is true. He loves me far too much to leave me the way He found me. And what was more important to Him than my happiness was changing me. It didn't happen overnight. But when He was done, things ended quickly.
One day, I'm expecting something. Boom! Next day, it's a new season, people can't come, stuff is being restored, and I have a ministry.
Im still amazed at the soft landing God provided me from this. I thought it would have been worse. Maybe because I have the answers I needed, it's not. I say answers I needed because I got them. I don't need answers from Cindy. I got all the answers I needed from my loving Heavenly Father.
For those of you that have questioned whether or not God is good during this saga, I hope you see by now that He is. I didn't get the thing I wanted, but I got the thing I wanted most, which is what God wanted. I got to grow spiritually to a whole new level.
There's nothing better than being where God wants you to be!
I have really been thinking about the things God is telling me. In this new season, He's blessed the start of it by giving me a book to really help put things in perspective.
I've come to understand that when life isn't making perfect sense to us, it's making perfect sense to God.
I asked myself about this new season, and in thinking about it I thought about this. My favorite verse of Scripture is Joel 2:25, which you should read. In part it says, "I will restore to you the years the locusts ate." In the old season, bed bugs came and somehow miraculously only infested my things. There was seriously one lone bed bug in Wendi's things. She didn't have to toss anything. I lost everything.
Most of what I lost was used up. My washer was used up. My dryer is close. It still works, so it remains an item God left me which I used in my battle with the bed bugs. They don't like heat.
I got to keep my TV. I also got to keep my stereo I found at the thrift store. But everything else in the house was gone, as I mentioned before.
But this is a new season, and it's starting off with some new things, but not all at once. I was able to get my laundry room re-done. The floor looks nice and the wainscoting really pops. It turned out well. New carpet for the small bedrooms arrives on the 14th of August. A new sofa and love seat will be here sometime next week or the week after. It depends on how much room on the truck to the store there is.
I found a table I like and I also found one I want. The one I like has four chairs and is $400. The one I want has eight chars and is $900. I might give in to a day of overtime and get the one with eight chairs. I like entertaining and I'm hoping that this new season will afford me that opportunity.
Those are things God is allowing me to have because I need them. My stuff was all used up and couldn't come into this new season. Sometimes people can't come, either. I'm getting better at understanding that.
There are new appliances too. The new washer and dryer are lovely. I'm so thankful for them. The new refrigerator and dishwasher will be here on the 27th. Each and every item on this list of new was on sale. For a really good price.
I have a bed as I mentioned. It's enough for now. It's not the air mattress and it's off the floor. I'm thankful for that, too.
But that's just material stuff. It sounds like a lot, but I needed a lot. I had a way to pay for them, that won't hurt me a lot. I'm thankful for that, too.
In this new season, God told me something unexpected. OK, He's told me a lot of unexpected stuff, but this one thing He made me think really hard about for a bit:
I have a ministry. It's at the rescue mission and it's very small. But it's ministering to people by just being me, a guy who loves Jesus and wants other people to know that Jesus loves them, too.
That news changed my life. But I never thought of it as an actual ministry. Ministry is what my friend Karl does. I just join him, and occasionally fill in for him.
Of all the things I do, of all the things new, that revelation is so important to me. God trusts me enough with His word that He lets me have a ministry!
I'm excited by that. But humbled. It's a privilege to tell people about their Creator. A mighty one, and it's something I don't take lightly.
My life is so not about me anymore.
The other thing that's new is answers. God is slowly walking me through an after-action report of the last five years of my life. Slowly, step by step, I'm seeing more good that came out of not getting fair maiden and losing everything in front of Wendi's eyes, being humiliated, and being made to look like a fool. There were kingdom reasons, reasons I couldn't see in the trial, that are being revealed to me.
God is good. He is just. He's sometimes hard. But that's just because what Karl told me a long time ago is true. He loves me far too much to leave me the way He found me. And what was more important to Him than my happiness was changing me. It didn't happen overnight. But when He was done, things ended quickly.
One day, I'm expecting something. Boom! Next day, it's a new season, people can't come, stuff is being restored, and I have a ministry.
Im still amazed at the soft landing God provided me from this. I thought it would have been worse. Maybe because I have the answers I needed, it's not. I say answers I needed because I got them. I don't need answers from Cindy. I got all the answers I needed from my loving Heavenly Father.
For those of you that have questioned whether or not God is good during this saga, I hope you see by now that He is. I didn't get the thing I wanted, but I got the thing I wanted most, which is what God wanted. I got to grow spiritually to a whole new level.
There's nothing better than being where God wants you to be!
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