Stoopid Hooman

I have a pussycat named Moo.  Moo just looks like a Moo.  I always thought Moo was kinda dumb.  I know she's a runt.  But being both those things, Moo has a separate gift to make up for whatever flaws I see in her.  That cat is mean as a rattlesnake to everybody but me and she has an unusually sharp set of claws.  I've been around cats my whole life.  Moo is an alley cat, through and through.

Except with me.  But every now and again, the murder comes out.  If she's overstimulated, she turns into a furry killing machine. 

I wonder sometimes if she doesn't think "stoopid hooman" about me.  Sometimes I put on the stupid hat, because sometimes things get to me, like stress, doubt, wonderment, and worry about things that are pretty much out of my control.  That happened to me today, lest you think that somehow I have all my eggs in the right basket, or my proverbial crap together.

I'm very much a work in progress. 

I had to be reminded again today that while the storm is raging, Jesus is in the boat.  And while it may appear to me He's taking a nap while the storm is raging, He is in the boat and the boat's gonna get to its' destination.

One of the things I've had a hard time with is fasting.  I get it, and I've done it, but it maybe hasn't worked the way I expected.  But I had it explained again to me by Tony Evans.  I get it again.  And I'm thinking that maybe being in the middle of engine run school is not the best place to try it.

That's the conclusion I came to in a walk I took today in God's creation.

I mentioned that yesterday I went to the Botanical Garden to attend a worship service in their building.  Today, I took a stroll through the grounds, just to get my head clear.  I'm concerned about somebody and it got to my feelings today.  Distractions, I don't need. 

You can only be as good as the guy reading the checklist, I found out this morning, and not only did the guy reading the checklist miss some checklist items because I don't speak NAVY.  That's not a helpful thing when you're old and learning a bunch of new stuff. 

So, that's on me.  But I'm responding.  For the small errors I made today, I was able to explain to the other guys why an engine was doing what it was doing compared to the other three engines.  That actually made sense to me. 

Its tough.  I think fasting would be helpful in the circumstance.  I also think that low blood sugar isn't serving me well.  I got some help to understand that maybe this wasn't the best time for a food fast, but maybe there's another thing or two I can fast from.  I'm now considering that alternative.

But the other thing on me is forgetting that Jesus is in the boat.  But I got reminded too, that God leads us through valleys sometimes.  Thanks, Tony Evans, for the sermon series.  Each day has been right on.

I'm trying to get out of my own way.  Really, I am.