Room with a view
On a good day, my life doesn't make sense. On a GOOD day.
I'm not so sure what kind of day today is going to be, but I know there's direction. One of the things I'm looking for these days from Jesus is some clarity about where we're headed and I think I may have gotten that this morning, from, of all places, a conglomeration of posts I shared on Facebook.
My ex, Wendi, explained to me once after I posted some stuff on her Facebook page, that it was like her virtual front yard, where friends walked by and waved. That made a lot of sense to me and I took down what I said. That was years ago, by the way. But the analogy stuck with me. It's why I only have people I know as friends (with one exception). I like that we can walk by each others' front yards, and sometimes stop and say hi.
On days when it seems I'm oversharing pictures and memes that have a Jesus theme, there's usually a reason for it, and often it's that they're telling the story better than I could if I sat down and wrote it myself.
One of the hardest things about being a Christian is trying to figure out when I'm fighting God or running ahead of Him. I think just because there's something to do, it either needs to be done now or it's gonna happen today. Often times, that's not the case and I'm learning now to take each day as it comes.
The tricky part is that when things don't happen the way I think they should or in the time they should, I either tend to want to force things to happen or I want to quit and go a different direction. I did that once....and I got here.
I was thinking about that last night and reminding myself that I didn't just get here by myself...I had help. The other person, when a choice was to be made, chose not me. More than once, so I had a long talk with God about the realities of my life.
Like He didn't know them already.....
Anyway, sometimes we want to impart our wisdom on God, and I catch myself sometimes almost telling Him, "See, I told you so." And what's so hard for me these days is that I'm not as stupid as it looks I am. I'm really not.
So the question this morning was this: Whose wisdom was I going to trust?
I want to stop there and point this out: I can only see what is. I can't always see beyond what is, but I know the One who can, and does.
So back to the Facebook page. On it, you'll find two memes, (as of 9:11a.m.) a link to a devotional you really ought to read, (Take you five minutes, and you'll be glad you did. ) and a picture of an airplane my friend Henk shared. (Henk is his name, not a misspelling of Hank...he's Dutch)
The airplane is germane because of where it's from....not what it is. And so the story unfolds, for today.
So, I don't quit. I don't trust my own understanding, but lean in to God's. And, much like the devotional suggests, I wait in humility for God to announce the next step in His plan and while that happens, I try and get some much needed rest.
And I run today's race today.
I asked God for wisdom yesterday. And He gave me the wisdom I needed for today, which was quite simply enough to decide whose I was going to place my trust in. I've seen the mess I've made of my life without Him. And I know that by His grace, I'm typing this today on a desk, looking at a freshly re-decorated room that reminds me, not of what is....
but what could be.
And that view looks pretty good to me.
I'm not so sure what kind of day today is going to be, but I know there's direction. One of the things I'm looking for these days from Jesus is some clarity about where we're headed and I think I may have gotten that this morning, from, of all places, a conglomeration of posts I shared on Facebook.
My ex, Wendi, explained to me once after I posted some stuff on her Facebook page, that it was like her virtual front yard, where friends walked by and waved. That made a lot of sense to me and I took down what I said. That was years ago, by the way. But the analogy stuck with me. It's why I only have people I know as friends (with one exception). I like that we can walk by each others' front yards, and sometimes stop and say hi.
On days when it seems I'm oversharing pictures and memes that have a Jesus theme, there's usually a reason for it, and often it's that they're telling the story better than I could if I sat down and wrote it myself.
One of the hardest things about being a Christian is trying to figure out when I'm fighting God or running ahead of Him. I think just because there's something to do, it either needs to be done now or it's gonna happen today. Often times, that's not the case and I'm learning now to take each day as it comes.
The tricky part is that when things don't happen the way I think they should or in the time they should, I either tend to want to force things to happen or I want to quit and go a different direction. I did that once....and I got here.
I was thinking about that last night and reminding myself that I didn't just get here by myself...I had help. The other person, when a choice was to be made, chose not me. More than once, so I had a long talk with God about the realities of my life.
Like He didn't know them already.....
Anyway, sometimes we want to impart our wisdom on God, and I catch myself sometimes almost telling Him, "See, I told you so." And what's so hard for me these days is that I'm not as stupid as it looks I am. I'm really not.
So the question this morning was this: Whose wisdom was I going to trust?
I want to stop there and point this out: I can only see what is. I can't always see beyond what is, but I know the One who can, and does.
So back to the Facebook page. On it, you'll find two memes, (as of 9:11a.m.) a link to a devotional you really ought to read, (Take you five minutes, and you'll be glad you did. ) and a picture of an airplane my friend Henk shared. (Henk is his name, not a misspelling of Hank...he's Dutch)
The airplane is germane because of where it's from....not what it is. And so the story unfolds, for today.
So, I don't quit. I don't trust my own understanding, but lean in to God's. And, much like the devotional suggests, I wait in humility for God to announce the next step in His plan and while that happens, I try and get some much needed rest.
And I run today's race today.
I asked God for wisdom yesterday. And He gave me the wisdom I needed for today, which was quite simply enough to decide whose I was going to place my trust in. I've seen the mess I've made of my life without Him. And I know that by His grace, I'm typing this today on a desk, looking at a freshly re-decorated room that reminds me, not of what is....
but what could be.
And that view looks pretty good to me.
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