a better story
Well, that post, well, sucked. I deleted it. Y'all know I'm not happy about the politics of this country and I'm frustrated that nobody's looking out for us. I mean that. Nobody is. We're not a fringe group. We're just the people that do the working and paying taxes and living and dying. We're not the poor, nor a fringe group that's being picked on. We're just the "shut up and color" crowd. It bothers me.
Lots of things bother me. Tonight, for instance, there are three absolutely beautiful rib steaks in the fridge. People back in the day used to call these club steaks. They're about an inch and a half thick, bone-in, and nicely marbled. They'll be great on the grill.
I cleaned the pool today. I mowed yesterday. I cleaned off the patio today. It's a beautiful night out and it's a Saturday. I've worked hard all week and managed not to screw anything up for our inspection at work. The floors are swept and like I said, it's a beautiful night out.
And I'm all by myself.
Being alone sometimes gets to me and tonight, for some reason it did. But I didn't do anything about it except go for a drive and shortly after leaving the house I asked God, "Where are you?" I really meant it and I got the answer rather quickly.
The guy on BBN was talking about last day prophesy. I selected another station. And no sooner than getting the words out of my mouth, I received an answer.
God was right there with me.
I heard a song called "Praise You in this Storm" by Casting Crowns. That told me what to do. The second song that started out with a lyric about the battle within called "Banner of Love" by Luminate. Then I heard a song called "Before the Morning", that reminded me that in this alone time, this darkness, if you will, it's just a God given (who am I to argue with the Creator if He says I need a delay?) time for His will to be done in my life. It's easy to forget that when you're lonely. Like I said, I have these beautiful steaks in the fridge and I'm here by myself. It's just the way it is and tomorrow I'll grill one up, maybe Miss June will want one, and I can freeze the one or two not cooked. I need to roast some chile peppers anyway.
It's so easy to do this or that when you're lonely. I could do something about it, but I made the better choice of just jumping in the car and going looking for God. I suspect, though, that He was always here in the house. I have these things I haven't had for a very long time; I think people call them feelings; sometimes I don't quite know the best way to deal with them and sometimes I think I let them get in the way of what's truly important.
I miss having someone in my life to share it with; especially someone to share the joy and excitement I've found in my walk with the Lord. But too, I know, that it's not my will, but God's at play in my life and if I'm impatient, I might miss out on a blessing He has for me. It's that, and that alone, that will keep me fighting the good fight. That fight has changed and the battle I'm fighting now is the battle of alone. I'm not good at it. I don't like it.
Another thing I know though is that it's just another day closer to whatever God has in store for me on the other side of this nightmare.
I was reminded tonight that, although I be devoid of human company, I'm not alone. God, the Creator of all, was right here with me when I needed Him most. How do I know that for sure? Listen to the song. Remember, I asked God where He was? He told me.
Enjoy the songs:
Lots of things bother me. Tonight, for instance, there are three absolutely beautiful rib steaks in the fridge. People back in the day used to call these club steaks. They're about an inch and a half thick, bone-in, and nicely marbled. They'll be great on the grill.
I cleaned the pool today. I mowed yesterday. I cleaned off the patio today. It's a beautiful night out and it's a Saturday. I've worked hard all week and managed not to screw anything up for our inspection at work. The floors are swept and like I said, it's a beautiful night out.
And I'm all by myself.
Being alone sometimes gets to me and tonight, for some reason it did. But I didn't do anything about it except go for a drive and shortly after leaving the house I asked God, "Where are you?" I really meant it and I got the answer rather quickly.
The guy on BBN was talking about last day prophesy. I selected another station. And no sooner than getting the words out of my mouth, I received an answer.
God was right there with me.
I heard a song called "Praise You in this Storm" by Casting Crowns. That told me what to do. The second song that started out with a lyric about the battle within called "Banner of Love" by Luminate. Then I heard a song called "Before the Morning", that reminded me that in this alone time, this darkness, if you will, it's just a God given (who am I to argue with the Creator if He says I need a delay?) time for His will to be done in my life. It's easy to forget that when you're lonely. Like I said, I have these beautiful steaks in the fridge and I'm here by myself. It's just the way it is and tomorrow I'll grill one up, maybe Miss June will want one, and I can freeze the one or two not cooked. I need to roast some chile peppers anyway.
It's so easy to do this or that when you're lonely. I could do something about it, but I made the better choice of just jumping in the car and going looking for God. I suspect, though, that He was always here in the house. I have these things I haven't had for a very long time; I think people call them feelings; sometimes I don't quite know the best way to deal with them and sometimes I think I let them get in the way of what's truly important.
I miss having someone in my life to share it with; especially someone to share the joy and excitement I've found in my walk with the Lord. But too, I know, that it's not my will, but God's at play in my life and if I'm impatient, I might miss out on a blessing He has for me. It's that, and that alone, that will keep me fighting the good fight. That fight has changed and the battle I'm fighting now is the battle of alone. I'm not good at it. I don't like it.
Another thing I know though is that it's just another day closer to whatever God has in store for me on the other side of this nightmare.
I was reminded tonight that, although I be devoid of human company, I'm not alone. God, the Creator of all, was right here with me when I needed Him most. How do I know that for sure? Listen to the song. Remember, I asked God where He was? He told me.
Enjoy the songs:
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