Time for some new adventures...
There comes a time when you have to realize that no matter what you do or say, your best efforts aren't going to get the job done. I came to that realization at about three o'clock this afternoon when I saw something in someone's eyes that I've seen, thankfully, only very rarely. I saw hate. And it was aimed at me.
I'm learning a lot about being a Christian, too. And one of the things I'm learning, again, is that there's a time to walk away. I don't think you ever stop praying for someone, but I think that once you share what you can, there comes a point where sharing any more is just counter-productive. That's sad, but I think, true. I even read something about this recently and both of those things converged today in the parking lot of the credit union I belong to.
I've always said that I'd know when it was time to walk away. I truly believe that God led me on this adventure and maybe, just maybe it was to help me change. I think the biggest thing I learned through all of this is that God showed me grace and forgiveness. I hope I learned to show that to others through this.
And it's sad that one person could hurt another as badly as I did Wendi. I'm so glad that God took that awful human being I used to be (and still could be without God in my life!) and changed me. I'm thinking that over is probably the word of the day, but I've been down that road before. This time, though, I think over will rue the day.
I do know that God won't allow anything to happen to me that's not in His plan for me. It's been three years of separation, almost. It's been a lot of things and it doesn't come as a shock that this will be the outcome. I've said that before, but this time it just feels different.
Well, I do think a road trip is in store. I haven't been to Yellowstone since all this happened and I'm thinking of making an overnight trek. It'll be the first time I've ever done something like this on my own, and I may change my mind. We'll see what the good Lord has in store for me.
I'm learning a lot about being a Christian, too. And one of the things I'm learning, again, is that there's a time to walk away. I don't think you ever stop praying for someone, but I think that once you share what you can, there comes a point where sharing any more is just counter-productive. That's sad, but I think, true. I even read something about this recently and both of those things converged today in the parking lot of the credit union I belong to.
I've always said that I'd know when it was time to walk away. I truly believe that God led me on this adventure and maybe, just maybe it was to help me change. I think the biggest thing I learned through all of this is that God showed me grace and forgiveness. I hope I learned to show that to others through this.
And it's sad that one person could hurt another as badly as I did Wendi. I'm so glad that God took that awful human being I used to be (and still could be without God in my life!) and changed me. I'm thinking that over is probably the word of the day, but I've been down that road before. This time, though, I think over will rue the day.
I do know that God won't allow anything to happen to me that's not in His plan for me. It's been three years of separation, almost. It's been a lot of things and it doesn't come as a shock that this will be the outcome. I've said that before, but this time it just feels different.
Well, I do think a road trip is in store. I haven't been to Yellowstone since all this happened and I'm thinking of making an overnight trek. It'll be the first time I've ever done something like this on my own, and I may change my mind. We'll see what the good Lord has in store for me.
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