Two-fer Wednesday
I know it would have sounded better as two-fer Tuesday, but you go with what you have sometimes instead of what you want.
I have two thoughts today. They're kind of on parallel tracks but they're not thoughts that will merge together. That's why it's two-fer.
Today's first thought is about running ahead of God. I was too tired to see it last night, but I think it was the right idea. Sometimes I wonder if I start doing that. The thought is different than the one I shared with a friend a couple of days ago about not doing what God wants you to do. I think in your walk if you do that, God just stops and waits for you to come back to where He is. That happened with me and I try to be mindful of the things that can go wrong when you do.
I was thinkin' about all the movies out that I'd like to see. I don't like going to the movies by myself. I already feel like a loser sitting in church by myself but at least there people don't mind. I don't go to dinner by myself, either. I will get take out. I'm kind of a social creature and those are just two things I don't like doing alone. OK, two of many. Anyway...
I'm pretty much over the squoze. That got cemented yesterday and I'll explain more in a bit about that in a minute. So, I'm ready. I've long since accepted things are the way they are in my life. But for the two times I've tried online dating, I haven't had the best success. I met the same girl twice. These two are as close as you'll ever get to being two sides of the same coin. That's what I mean when I say that. So, where do you go at 50? I'm a Christian (in more than just saying it) and then there's the age thing. OK now there's an over 50 dating website. I guess that means me.
There's also a Christian website for dating where I met Tami. I got reminded of this when I tried to re-sign up for a new profile. I couldn't sign up again, but what I could do is reinstate my old account from four years ago. When I did, there were those first conversations we had. I had to accept that I was running ahead of God when all that happened and that His NO! meant just that. I didn't get all wrapped up about the whole thing again, though. I just smiled. I know that where she and I are these days, we both made the choice to love God more than each other. I didn't read any of that stuff because I'd have to pay $30 to see it again. It's there. I just don't need to see it.
So, there is the over 50 site. I filled out a thing for that, too. I'm not kidding you; out of the first three pictures I saw, one was the squoze and apparently she joined up when she was still living here. One thing I've learned is that saying you love someone and showing you love someone are two different things. She texted me out of the blue the other day and it's just a timely reminder that I don't need her to be part of my movie anymore.
At work, I started thinking about this and the thought popped into my head about asking God about this. I know that sounds kind of silly; I'm single. I'm a grown man. I don't need to ask permission, right? On the other hand if Jesus is the Lord of my life, then maybe I ought to inquire about things like this. And I couldn't help but wonder if I was running ahead of God in this matter. I don't think for a minute that I'm gonna wind up spending the rest of my days alone but maybe it's not the right time for "Our Time". Or anything else for that matter. For me, it's not NO! again but a matter of not yet.
When you're tired, sometimes you miss the reinforcing lesson. After thinking I was running ahead of God, this happened to me. Our work leader assigns jobs to us. I'm in the middle of a big job that's going to take at least two weeks to finish. I'm working without assistance from a more experienced mechanic because they're confident that I can read and follow the technical data. I can ask questions of another mechanic when I need some corporate knowledge about the task and the more experienced mechanic will be back tomorrow from the class he's in. So far, so good. I'm on task and I'm focused on the task. And then, I get asked to quit what I'm doing at the end of the night and go do something else for no other reason than it's there. It didn't need to be started at almost the end of the shift and the instructions I received didn't match what the situation with the other airplane was. When I went back to inquire about something related to the job, the story I was told changed and it was then, don't do that because it's not ready. Do this instead so that when others are finished with their work, we can be ready to do what I told you to do.
I kid you not. The guy ran ahead of himself and the other guys that were assigned with me were talking about putting the cart before the horse. This was at about eleven last night and I was tired. I didn't see it then, but I do now. So, no putting the cart before the horse. No running ahead of God.
In part the reason for it is I remember the hurt both Tami and I had over this and I don't want to visit that on someone else. If it's not time, God's going to have His way and there's no reason to re-learn that lesson painfully. I'd rather just heed that call to come back and walk up the hill and not try to run up it to see what's on the other side.
Today's second part is about foundations. The Bible talks about building your foundation on the Rock, meaning Jesus and what He taught us. I was thinking about that earlier today. For all that I've been through, God has kept me pretty solid in the storm. I have a job and I have a home. Only by God's grace do I have either. He's kept me here and used those things as the solid footing I needed. He's also used my church and pastor as part of that foundation to build on. Left up to me, I'd be a beach bum in Oregon. Or worse. And I'm thankful for that.
I think about that and about what not having that foundation is like. I know people that have moved hither and yon trying to find that foundation to build on. Thankfully, four years ago Jesus found me. Oh, there have been storms, but because Jesus was my Rock and Salvation, He propped me up when the storms came. There was damage, but the thing didn't collapse.
I'm very grateful today to God and His mercy toward me.
I have two thoughts today. They're kind of on parallel tracks but they're not thoughts that will merge together. That's why it's two-fer.
Today's first thought is about running ahead of God. I was too tired to see it last night, but I think it was the right idea. Sometimes I wonder if I start doing that. The thought is different than the one I shared with a friend a couple of days ago about not doing what God wants you to do. I think in your walk if you do that, God just stops and waits for you to come back to where He is. That happened with me and I try to be mindful of the things that can go wrong when you do.
I was thinkin' about all the movies out that I'd like to see. I don't like going to the movies by myself. I already feel like a loser sitting in church by myself but at least there people don't mind. I don't go to dinner by myself, either. I will get take out. I'm kind of a social creature and those are just two things I don't like doing alone. OK, two of many. Anyway...
I'm pretty much over the squoze. That got cemented yesterday and I'll explain more in a bit about that in a minute. So, I'm ready. I've long since accepted things are the way they are in my life. But for the two times I've tried online dating, I haven't had the best success. I met the same girl twice. These two are as close as you'll ever get to being two sides of the same coin. That's what I mean when I say that. So, where do you go at 50? I'm a Christian (in more than just saying it) and then there's the age thing. OK now there's an over 50 dating website. I guess that means me.
There's also a Christian website for dating where I met Tami. I got reminded of this when I tried to re-sign up for a new profile. I couldn't sign up again, but what I could do is reinstate my old account from four years ago. When I did, there were those first conversations we had. I had to accept that I was running ahead of God when all that happened and that His NO! meant just that. I didn't get all wrapped up about the whole thing again, though. I just smiled. I know that where she and I are these days, we both made the choice to love God more than each other. I didn't read any of that stuff because I'd have to pay $30 to see it again. It's there. I just don't need to see it.
So, there is the over 50 site. I filled out a thing for that, too. I'm not kidding you; out of the first three pictures I saw, one was the squoze and apparently she joined up when she was still living here. One thing I've learned is that saying you love someone and showing you love someone are two different things. She texted me out of the blue the other day and it's just a timely reminder that I don't need her to be part of my movie anymore.
At work, I started thinking about this and the thought popped into my head about asking God about this. I know that sounds kind of silly; I'm single. I'm a grown man. I don't need to ask permission, right? On the other hand if Jesus is the Lord of my life, then maybe I ought to inquire about things like this. And I couldn't help but wonder if I was running ahead of God in this matter. I don't think for a minute that I'm gonna wind up spending the rest of my days alone but maybe it's not the right time for "Our Time". Or anything else for that matter. For me, it's not NO! again but a matter of not yet.
When you're tired, sometimes you miss the reinforcing lesson. After thinking I was running ahead of God, this happened to me. Our work leader assigns jobs to us. I'm in the middle of a big job that's going to take at least two weeks to finish. I'm working without assistance from a more experienced mechanic because they're confident that I can read and follow the technical data. I can ask questions of another mechanic when I need some corporate knowledge about the task and the more experienced mechanic will be back tomorrow from the class he's in. So far, so good. I'm on task and I'm focused on the task. And then, I get asked to quit what I'm doing at the end of the night and go do something else for no other reason than it's there. It didn't need to be started at almost the end of the shift and the instructions I received didn't match what the situation with the other airplane was. When I went back to inquire about something related to the job, the story I was told changed and it was then, don't do that because it's not ready. Do this instead so that when others are finished with their work, we can be ready to do what I told you to do.
I kid you not. The guy ran ahead of himself and the other guys that were assigned with me were talking about putting the cart before the horse. This was at about eleven last night and I was tired. I didn't see it then, but I do now. So, no putting the cart before the horse. No running ahead of God.
In part the reason for it is I remember the hurt both Tami and I had over this and I don't want to visit that on someone else. If it's not time, God's going to have His way and there's no reason to re-learn that lesson painfully. I'd rather just heed that call to come back and walk up the hill and not try to run up it to see what's on the other side.
Today's second part is about foundations. The Bible talks about building your foundation on the Rock, meaning Jesus and what He taught us. I was thinking about that earlier today. For all that I've been through, God has kept me pretty solid in the storm. I have a job and I have a home. Only by God's grace do I have either. He's kept me here and used those things as the solid footing I needed. He's also used my church and pastor as part of that foundation to build on. Left up to me, I'd be a beach bum in Oregon. Or worse. And I'm thankful for that.
I think about that and about what not having that foundation is like. I know people that have moved hither and yon trying to find that foundation to build on. Thankfully, four years ago Jesus found me. Oh, there have been storms, but because Jesus was my Rock and Salvation, He propped me up when the storms came. There was damage, but the thing didn't collapse.
I'm very grateful today to God and His mercy toward me.
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