hoo boy.
On any given day, my life is bedlam. I know that, and when I started seeing the GF, I tried to explain that and told her that if it got bad, I was out.
It got bad. And by mutual consent, and for her own protection, we're no longer an item.
It's tough because I know what I've been through and she doesn't. Thankfully.
The thing that brought about the abrupt end was this: too much providence.
Y'all know about the Who. I can't call her mine anymore; God told me to let her go and I've tried. And the detour of this brief foray into dating someone who isn't her ended just about like one could expect: I got pointed back to her.
The former GF has a sister whose name is the same as the Who. Her husband's first name is the same as the Who's ex. They live in Oregon. So did the Who and her ex. It was the largest and most clearly defined "coincidence", or in my case, I believe, providence in my life. It wasn't the only one. The Who has brothers named Tom and Jerry and her and her ex lived in Tooele, where the cats named Tom and Jerry I wound up with via Wendi through Miss June were placed there for adoption.
Those were the biggies. There were lots of other ones. And I had to make a choice: At what point do I start paying attention to the things happening. I made that choice.
Either it's God, or He's allowing it. Either way, I wasn't supposed to be there anymore. And that's sad. But at the same time, it's better.
And she told me some things about myself that I think I need to resolve. That and I'm still very much in awe of, and afraid of:
God.
So I think the best thing I can do for a while is sit tight and see what God's doing. Whatever the outcome, you gotta admit, that's a whole lot of stuff. Too much to just be random or coincidental.
It got bad. And by mutual consent, and for her own protection, we're no longer an item.
It's tough because I know what I've been through and she doesn't. Thankfully.
The thing that brought about the abrupt end was this: too much providence.
Y'all know about the Who. I can't call her mine anymore; God told me to let her go and I've tried. And the detour of this brief foray into dating someone who isn't her ended just about like one could expect: I got pointed back to her.
The former GF has a sister whose name is the same as the Who. Her husband's first name is the same as the Who's ex. They live in Oregon. So did the Who and her ex. It was the largest and most clearly defined "coincidence", or in my case, I believe, providence in my life. It wasn't the only one. The Who has brothers named Tom and Jerry and her and her ex lived in Tooele, where the cats named Tom and Jerry I wound up with via Wendi through Miss June were placed there for adoption.
Those were the biggies. There were lots of other ones. And I had to make a choice: At what point do I start paying attention to the things happening. I made that choice.
Either it's God, or He's allowing it. Either way, I wasn't supposed to be there anymore. And that's sad. But at the same time, it's better.
And she told me some things about myself that I think I need to resolve. That and I'm still very much in awe of, and afraid of:
God.
So I think the best thing I can do for a while is sit tight and see what God's doing. Whatever the outcome, you gotta admit, that's a whole lot of stuff. Too much to just be random or coincidental.
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