Fighting with myself

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I suppose it beats the alternative of fighting with others but I've been fighting with myself the last couple of days.  Mostly it's just fighting the urge to jump into the car and drive to this place or that.  I so miss the ocean and I could be in Oregon in about a half a day.

Conversely, I really want to take a trip to Yellowstone, which is just five hours away by car.  Oregon isn't doable. Yellowstone certainly is.  In fact, it's two tanks of gas in the Saturn and the only thing stopping me, is, well, me.

Surprisingly, I'm doing ok with the not smoking.  We had a little battle with that this morning, myself and I, and not buying a pack won out.  It's been almost a week since I've bought a pack.  I borrowed one from someone last night and it wasn't enjoyable.  I guess that's progress.

I did text the kid and see if he wants to go camping.  If I don't hear from him in the next hour, then the fight with myself will pretty much be over.  I don't wanna really go by myself so if the kid says no, then it's the hangar tonight and just hanging out at home for the weekend.

Unless...

I can't promise that either because the way I feel right now, it could be the road trip.

Hey, that's the great thing about fighting with yourself... you never ever know who's going to win.

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