What's your blessing look like?
My friend is downsizing some things and in that downsizing she gave me some construction paper, coloring books, and crayons. I can always find people who need that kind of stuff so I asked the Sunday school teacher if she could use them. She was tickled to have them. I was going to give the stack of coloring books to someone else, but decided at the last second just to give them to the Sunday School lady. If she wanted them, great. If not, she could just tell me and I could find someone else who maybe wanted them.
The story she told me was priceless. She told me she needed coloring books but hadn't told anyone yet. She was just going to start buying them here or there. God used my friend to meet her need before she'd even asked Him about it. It was pretty cool to be the middle man. The other really cool thing was that a friend of mine at church got to see that and gave thanks for the little miracles God does and the little blessings He provides that sometimes go unnoticed. That got me thinking about blessings today. I was blessed as I said to be the middleman to someone else's blessing. And later on today, I got one for my very own.
Sometimes, God offers explanations. I'm not worthy, nor deserving of them. But sometimes, I get them just the same. Tonight was one of those.
We all have our demons and although I'm doing OK, I suppose I'll always struggle with mine. For the most part, I'm doing OK with it. I try to be careful with what I look at (haven't visited online garbage for almost four years now!), but every now and again, I see something unintentional that I have to not look at. The other thing I struggle with is the whole being alone thing.
But then, I saw a little video on the internet that helped me put the whole thing in perspective and as I listened to it, I'm looking at alone in a whole new light. Maybe I'm alone because I haven't yet earned the right to have someone in my life. The guy just kind of put my whole circumstance right into perspective. With old things being old, it doesn't mean that I'm just ready to run out the gate and try it again because I think I'm ready.
Maybe what I am, is trying to have that right again. After all, my track record kind of sucks. OK, it really sucks. I want to be careful that I don't imply God makes us earn things but I think in this case, I might have to go through this stuff because of my past sins before God will allow me the privilege of sharing my life with someone again isn't too far off the mark.
I don't think it's too far out of the realm of possibility that maybe it's why things wound up the way they did at the end of 2013. Maybe I needed a little test to see if I'd learned something. I said no when no was appropriate. Twice. And maybe, just maybe all of that is part of "earning" the right to have a relationship with someone. It sure would explain some other stuff that just doesn't make a lot of sense to me. I don't know. Time will tell.
In the mean time, I like what the man said about what we see. Why, he asked, would we want to torture ourselves with what we can't have instead of trying to put that energy to some good use? Why, indeed? I never quite looked at it like that before, but it's amazing how stupidly simple an answer to a complex problem can be. It makes sense.
Some coloring books were a blessing to someone. Answers were a blessing to me. So was today's sermon. So was a project I'm working on around the house and the help I got. It was a great way to take that energy and focus on something else.
I am blessed beyond measure tonight.
Praise God!
The story she told me was priceless. She told me she needed coloring books but hadn't told anyone yet. She was just going to start buying them here or there. God used my friend to meet her need before she'd even asked Him about it. It was pretty cool to be the middle man. The other really cool thing was that a friend of mine at church got to see that and gave thanks for the little miracles God does and the little blessings He provides that sometimes go unnoticed. That got me thinking about blessings today. I was blessed as I said to be the middleman to someone else's blessing. And later on today, I got one for my very own.
Sometimes, God offers explanations. I'm not worthy, nor deserving of them. But sometimes, I get them just the same. Tonight was one of those.
We all have our demons and although I'm doing OK, I suppose I'll always struggle with mine. For the most part, I'm doing OK with it. I try to be careful with what I look at (haven't visited online garbage for almost four years now!), but every now and again, I see something unintentional that I have to not look at. The other thing I struggle with is the whole being alone thing.
But then, I saw a little video on the internet that helped me put the whole thing in perspective and as I listened to it, I'm looking at alone in a whole new light. Maybe I'm alone because I haven't yet earned the right to have someone in my life. The guy just kind of put my whole circumstance right into perspective. With old things being old, it doesn't mean that I'm just ready to run out the gate and try it again because I think I'm ready.
Maybe what I am, is trying to have that right again. After all, my track record kind of sucks. OK, it really sucks. I want to be careful that I don't imply God makes us earn things but I think in this case, I might have to go through this stuff because of my past sins before God will allow me the privilege of sharing my life with someone again isn't too far off the mark.
I don't think it's too far out of the realm of possibility that maybe it's why things wound up the way they did at the end of 2013. Maybe I needed a little test to see if I'd learned something. I said no when no was appropriate. Twice. And maybe, just maybe all of that is part of "earning" the right to have a relationship with someone. It sure would explain some other stuff that just doesn't make a lot of sense to me. I don't know. Time will tell.
In the mean time, I like what the man said about what we see. Why, he asked, would we want to torture ourselves with what we can't have instead of trying to put that energy to some good use? Why, indeed? I never quite looked at it like that before, but it's amazing how stupidly simple an answer to a complex problem can be. It makes sense.
Some coloring books were a blessing to someone. Answers were a blessing to me. So was today's sermon. So was a project I'm working on around the house and the help I got. It was a great way to take that energy and focus on something else.
I am blessed beyond measure tonight.
Praise God!
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