But, I don't understand....
Yesterday, I talked about following where the Lord takes me. I think that's easier for me than maybe someone else because I hit my bottom and when I started listening to the Lord, things in my life started getting pretty good. Notice, I said "my" bottom, and not THE bottom. I had a long way to go to hit "the" bottom. Fortunately, the Lord blessed me with people in my life who helped me and the ability to recognize that if I didn't do something, it was going to really start to head to "the" bottom.
It's easy, but as with all things, I'm not exactly perfect in this. I'm willing to follow but found myself questioning the Lord about this a bit ago. In the first place, who am I to question HIS perfect plan for me? I asked out loud, but directed to the Lord, "are you sure about this?" It wasn't out of a lack of faith nor a want to follow His will, but a lack of understanding. I don't know "why".
That's the hard part for me sometimes. I may not understand this or that, or why I'm headed where I am. Sometimes I don't even see how it's possible, but then I remember that God is the God of the Impossible. If I was supposed to understand why, I would. In time, when His time is right, I will. But I didn't start out with this mindset. Last summer I had to make a choice and thought I was at a crossroads. I wasn't at a crossroads, I was at the base of a hill. Instead of climbing that hill, I chose to take the path around the hill because I was just coming out of the darkness and couldn't see the path up the hill was clearly marked for me.
It wasn't until I began understanding one simple precept about God that the path became clearer. God doesn't change. When I accepted that and started applying God's rules for living my life, in essence, following Him, I saw the path I was supposed to be on. I mentioned it's an uphill path. It is.
There's nothing easy about my life these days. What's easy is how I deal with it. When it's too much, I just give it to the Lord Jesus and he helps me remember where that path leads. Today I heard a lot of things about trusting the Lord, the other part of this week's theme. I said a little bit ago that I asked, "are you sure?" I apologized later in prayer because He IS sure of what He has planned for me. It's me with the trust issues.
So, I didn't understand. Maybe I didn't need to. Maybe what I needed today was just a little more faith to replace the lack of understanding. I realized this and got back on the path. Well, I never really left it, I just kind of tried to stand off to the side of it and let life pass me by today. Fortunately, for me, the Lord had other ideas.
It's easy, but as with all things, I'm not exactly perfect in this. I'm willing to follow but found myself questioning the Lord about this a bit ago. In the first place, who am I to question HIS perfect plan for me? I asked out loud, but directed to the Lord, "are you sure about this?" It wasn't out of a lack of faith nor a want to follow His will, but a lack of understanding. I don't know "why".
That's the hard part for me sometimes. I may not understand this or that, or why I'm headed where I am. Sometimes I don't even see how it's possible, but then I remember that God is the God of the Impossible. If I was supposed to understand why, I would. In time, when His time is right, I will. But I didn't start out with this mindset. Last summer I had to make a choice and thought I was at a crossroads. I wasn't at a crossroads, I was at the base of a hill. Instead of climbing that hill, I chose to take the path around the hill because I was just coming out of the darkness and couldn't see the path up the hill was clearly marked for me.
It wasn't until I began understanding one simple precept about God that the path became clearer. God doesn't change. When I accepted that and started applying God's rules for living my life, in essence, following Him, I saw the path I was supposed to be on. I mentioned it's an uphill path. It is.
There's nothing easy about my life these days. What's easy is how I deal with it. When it's too much, I just give it to the Lord Jesus and he helps me remember where that path leads. Today I heard a lot of things about trusting the Lord, the other part of this week's theme. I said a little bit ago that I asked, "are you sure?" I apologized later in prayer because He IS sure of what He has planned for me. It's me with the trust issues.
So, I didn't understand. Maybe I didn't need to. Maybe what I needed today was just a little more faith to replace the lack of understanding. I realized this and got back on the path. Well, I never really left it, I just kind of tried to stand off to the side of it and let life pass me by today. Fortunately, for me, the Lord had other ideas.
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