it's time to hit the road...
For the past few months, I've been thinking about what I have to share with you today. It's not something I decided overnight. It's taken much prayer and coming to terms with a lot of the things I needed to. I had some things I had to accept, some things I needed to fix and clean up. I've pretty much done those things and only one little issue remains and that's my house which looks like, tonight, will be taken care of very shortly.
When my house is sold (it quit being a home a year ago on Tuesday), I'm going to be looking very quickly for a new place to live. As I started looking in Ogden for a place, I started thinking to myself about the things that hold me here. There aren't many.
Through circumstances I wish I could change, I don't have a good relationship with my kids. I managed to mess up the best thing that ever happened to me and no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find the right way to get it back. Staying here isn't going to change that and I've accepted that. The only thing keeping me here is a security blanket of a job that I don't hate, but I don't like either.
It's time for me to find my happy. I don't like living in Utah and I don't see a future here that keeps me doing anything but existing and I don't want to live that way.
I thought about this, too. Where would I go? I love Oregon and have always talked about moving there when I retire. I guess retirement is coming earlier than I planned and by the end of August, I won't be living in Utah any longer. Financially, I can afford to make the move. My standard of living, in a worldly sense, is going to drop, but I have the promise from God that He'll help me have what I need and the promise that He has a plan for me. That plan, I've known, will take me away from Utah and I've known it for a very long time. I just had to get to this point to not be afraid to take the next step.
I'm sorry to keep y'all in suspense. I had to talk to my mom, to KP, and to Wendi before I told the world about this. I've always felt the best when I was by the ocean, maybe it's because I'm a water baby. I don't know. What I do know is that there are trees, the sea, a lot of rain. h.
About the weird things that happened, and there were a lot of them. All I can say is that an opportunity found me that would be perfect for Wendi and I and I told her about it. It's a little cupcake and yogurt shop in Seaside that's for sale. It found me, I didn't go looking for it. It doesn't mean it's the right opportunity, though. That, along with a few other things, aren't my decision anymore. I've placed the decisions where they belong, voiced my opinion on the remaining few that need to be made, and will accept whatever the outcomes are with grace and dignity.
Be happy for me. I'm going to be fine. I feel good about starting over in a new place. It's a leap of faith, but I have that kind of faith. I have that much trust in God and His perfect plan for me that I'm not afraid to make the move. I'm not going alone. I'll always have Him. And when I turn 60 in just 13 short years (unless I can find a Federal Gov't. gig and I'm looking!) I'll have my retirement from both my civilian and military jobs.
One more thing, if you could pray about me finding a job before I go, I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks and God Bless you.
Coop
When my house is sold (it quit being a home a year ago on Tuesday), I'm going to be looking very quickly for a new place to live. As I started looking in Ogden for a place, I started thinking to myself about the things that hold me here. There aren't many.
Through circumstances I wish I could change, I don't have a good relationship with my kids. I managed to mess up the best thing that ever happened to me and no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find the right way to get it back. Staying here isn't going to change that and I've accepted that. The only thing keeping me here is a security blanket of a job that I don't hate, but I don't like either.
It's time for me to find my happy. I don't like living in Utah and I don't see a future here that keeps me doing anything but existing and I don't want to live that way.
I thought about this, too. Where would I go? I love Oregon and have always talked about moving there when I retire. I guess retirement is coming earlier than I planned and by the end of August, I won't be living in Utah any longer. Financially, I can afford to make the move. My standard of living, in a worldly sense, is going to drop, but I have the promise from God that He'll help me have what I need and the promise that He has a plan for me. That plan, I've known, will take me away from Utah and I've known it for a very long time. I just had to get to this point to not be afraid to take the next step.
I'm sorry to keep y'all in suspense. I had to talk to my mom, to KP, and to Wendi before I told the world about this. I've always felt the best when I was by the ocean, maybe it's because I'm a water baby. I don't know. What I do know is that there are trees, the sea, a lot of rain. h.
About the weird things that happened, and there were a lot of them. All I can say is that an opportunity found me that would be perfect for Wendi and I and I told her about it. It's a little cupcake and yogurt shop in Seaside that's for sale. It found me, I didn't go looking for it. It doesn't mean it's the right opportunity, though. That, along with a few other things, aren't my decision anymore. I've placed the decisions where they belong, voiced my opinion on the remaining few that need to be made, and will accept whatever the outcomes are with grace and dignity.
Be happy for me. I'm going to be fine. I feel good about starting over in a new place. It's a leap of faith, but I have that kind of faith. I have that much trust in God and His perfect plan for me that I'm not afraid to make the move. I'm not going alone. I'll always have Him. And when I turn 60 in just 13 short years (unless I can find a Federal Gov't. gig and I'm looking!) I'll have my retirement from both my civilian and military jobs.
One more thing, if you could pray about me finding a job before I go, I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks and God Bless you.
Coop
love seeing faith working, but will hate to see you go.
ReplyDeletePraying now for God's will, a job, and that all goes well for you