There's no such thing as coincidence
I talked about it being a weird week all week, both on the blog and my facebook page. I finally figured out at about 5:00 a.m. what all the weird was about.
I was sleeping soundly and woke up in a start. That little inner voice we all have told me to look at something online. I thought the request was odd, but hey, I just go with things these days. I looked at what I felt I was supposed to and asked some questions of someone about it all.
Needless to say, it's been an interesting morning and I learned a lot about myself. What did I learn? I really have changed quite a bit. Old me would have flipped out, made assumptions, accusations, and basically told someone to to quite frankly "go to hell". I had every reason to do this, but instead, I chose to remain calm, ask some questions, and go from there. It's funny as in ironic funny that I can see the changes in me but the person I was dealing with, for some reason, can't.
For once, though, I think I handled myself as a grown-up. I didn't get angry, call anyone names, nor say anything this morning I would regret later. I saw the situation for what it was, well, at least my take on it anyway. I had little to ask forgiveness for this morning but I did break down and buy a pack of cigarettes. I'm a bit disappointed in myself for that. I made it four whole days! The drama will subside and things will fall as they're supposed to. That's living by faith.
Another thing happened this week: I let go of my past. Actually, I did this a while ago. I just didn't tell anyone until today. The writing has been on the wall since yesterday morning, for sure, but it started on Tuesday when I woke up and knew something was wrong. I gave it to God. He allowed me to know what I needed to and I talked to Him about this on Wednesday. I told Him I trusted Him and in His perfect plan for me.
That's faith. Knowing that God has a plan for me and He's working on showing it to me. If this morning was a test, I'd give myself a good, solid "B". There's room for improvement and I'll take away from the day some things that will make me a better person. It's about all I can do and I'm OK with that.
Life goes on. My life certainly will, one way or the other. I did my best, fixed what I needed to, and that's all I can do in this situation.
I'm good with that, too.
I was sleeping soundly and woke up in a start. That little inner voice we all have told me to look at something online. I thought the request was odd, but hey, I just go with things these days. I looked at what I felt I was supposed to and asked some questions of someone about it all.
Needless to say, it's been an interesting morning and I learned a lot about myself. What did I learn? I really have changed quite a bit. Old me would have flipped out, made assumptions, accusations, and basically told someone to to quite frankly "go to hell". I had every reason to do this, but instead, I chose to remain calm, ask some questions, and go from there. It's funny as in ironic funny that I can see the changes in me but the person I was dealing with, for some reason, can't.
For once, though, I think I handled myself as a grown-up. I didn't get angry, call anyone names, nor say anything this morning I would regret later. I saw the situation for what it was, well, at least my take on it anyway. I had little to ask forgiveness for this morning but I did break down and buy a pack of cigarettes. I'm a bit disappointed in myself for that. I made it four whole days! The drama will subside and things will fall as they're supposed to. That's living by faith.
Another thing happened this week: I let go of my past. Actually, I did this a while ago. I just didn't tell anyone until today. The writing has been on the wall since yesterday morning, for sure, but it started on Tuesday when I woke up and knew something was wrong. I gave it to God. He allowed me to know what I needed to and I talked to Him about this on Wednesday. I told Him I trusted Him and in His perfect plan for me.
That's faith. Knowing that God has a plan for me and He's working on showing it to me. If this morning was a test, I'd give myself a good, solid "B". There's room for improvement and I'll take away from the day some things that will make me a better person. It's about all I can do and I'm OK with that.
Life goes on. My life certainly will, one way or the other. I did my best, fixed what I needed to, and that's all I can do in this situation.
I'm good with that, too.
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